Wow! I can actually mouth the words right out of my mouth.  Do you know I couldn't and wouldn't admit to that.  But when I went this Sunday to church and left with a stinky attitude I still wouldn't admit it.  My husband pointed it out and I shed a tear here and there, but still I found something wrong with the message, with the people, with the service, etc.

Called a friend of mine who also visits the same church and she plainly let me have it.  Showed me my heart without even knowing it I felt so relieved.  No wonder I was miserable going to church, especially that church. lol  I already went in looking for flaws and as a result my negative attitude resulted in me leaving empty.  I didn't bring the right praise nor the right attitude to the house of the Lord.

Now that I realized that I love to complain it is up to me to stop it.  I am going to make it my business in this coming new year to find good things~positive things no matter how things may appear.

Signed
I have a new attitude!

Well I am so excited.  My very first booksigning event.  Okay!  I haven't been promoting myself the way I should, but I am so tired lately.  Working hard and trying to keep the students from going bonkers now that the weather is getting warmer and June is so close.

The booksigning event will be at Resurrection Church 470 40th street  Brooklyn, NY from 12-2:30p.m. on May 6, 2007.

This is awesome!  I will keep you posted, but if you are in the neighborhood and want to meet me please do  I look forward to meeting new people all the time.

Today is truly a Happy Resurrection Day!  My sister Kareen and her husband Jose came to church with me today and gave themselves to Jesus.  My sister is saved.  Hallelulah!  Can't wait until the rest of my family and unsaved loved ones come to Christ.

I just woke up you believe it?  It's now 12:30p.m.  We arrived late yesterday after the Newsboys Go Concert.  It was such an awesome concert.  It was at Bethlehem, PA.  What an awesome experience and what a beautiful town.

Yesterday was a little weird, because we went to a restaurant I think it was Perkins and Andrew doubled over and vomitted like the exocist. It was like a funnel that wouldn't stop and to top it off it was at the dinner table.  Oh my God!
We couldn't believe it.  Can you imagine what was going through my head.

Well I grab Andrew and I tell the waitress my son is very ill and has just vomitted all over the dinner table.  Please send someone with a mop and rag.  I would have cleaned it up myself.  I know how it is to see and smell it.  Well I run to the ladies room with Andrew.  Where was my mind?  He is covered from head to toe in this green stuff.  I think he ate broccoli.  The ladies would come in and ask me what am I doing and look at my son.  I smiled politely and told them he had an accident and I'm trying to clean him up.  Well it didn't work.

Well we had an extra bag set up in the back of the car, because we were going to stay in PA.  I went to the car and Andrew had clean clothes.  Thank you Lord.
When we go back inside the owner is a little ticked off, because now he has to give back money to those who saw the whole thing and of course lost their appetite.  I didn't want my son to feel ashamed anymore, because of the comments that were being made and so I took him outside and waited for Willie.

You know we were about to just turn back and forget about the concert, but something inside me just said speak to that mountain and say devil you are a liar.  In that instant I tell you we all felt something happen and we had a blessing.  My son danced, laughed, raised his hands and blessed the Lord.  We enjoyed it so much.    Oh, you know what ? We had awful seats, but then Willie realized half way through the concert that in the corner in the front row were seats that were not taken.  Guess what we had front row seats.  Now you know that is God.  I was wearing earplugs mind you and the little girls screaming in the back row were giving me a headache, but heck ,it was all worth it.

God is good.  My son is starting to open up more and socialize with other children.  He is starting to look for others to converse and to share his ideas.    He doesn't want to be alone.  That is a miracle in itself.  Children who have "autism" want to be alone all the time.  That is why I know without a doubt that God is still in the business of making miracles.  No matter how small we may think they are miracles.  Thank you Lord.

I wanted to thank each one of you for your prayers. God is faithful. Andrew is doing so much better. He does not show signs of mania and his depression seems to have lifted. He is talking more and is more focused and seems to be smiling and looking forward to doing different things. He is communicating more and this is of course a move in the right direction.

Yesterday my son Andrew picked up a knife and said " Good-Bye Mommy" when I turned around he was about to stab me.  I grabbed the knife away from him and asked him why he wanted to hurt me? He looked confused and told me he did not know.

December and January were very difficult for me. My car was broken into. My son became very ill. Couldn't find the right doctor to diagnose him and still looking for child psychiatrist to help, trusting the Lord will send help January caught a cold then the cold developed into a horrible cough. Then I ended up with bronchitus. Oh yes also had a stomach virus. Had the army of the Lord pray for me. The Lord even sent a friend to come over my home and cook for me and family. I feel so much better. I thank the Lord for sustaining me and keeping me.

Want to hear something funny my doctor on Tuesday checked my lungs, because my chest was still hurting after a week of being on antibiotics. Dr. thought I needed an EKG.  Well the assistant has me hooked up right and I'm wearing the robe where you are exposed right.  I am feeling really uncomfortable, but I try to focus on the light above me.  When I hear the lady saying "she is alive".  "She's alive".  Well seems that I must have flat lined about three times.  The assistant kept hooking me up and snapping me down.  It was funny, but here I am holding it in and trying not to laugh.  Anyway, the machine was unplugged.  Thought you needed a laugh.